This holiday season ate me up and spit me out. I don’t know where time went and I don’t know how it got so crazy leading up to Christmas. By the week before, I still had almost all of my shopping left to do, a party on Christmas Eve with no food, and we barely had a tree…. However, by the time Christmas did roll around, the tree was decorated, food was prepared (including some amazingly good mulled wine), gifts were wrapped, and much fun was had by all.
Now, as I finish the holiday week, I look back over the year and it’s really been a very interesting year. We moved, things changed, life evolved… And, most importantly, we survived. In a way, I feel like a twig caught in the currents of my life. I am buffeted to and fro, hither and yon, swept away by things I cannot see and cannot understand. I’ve made it through, but I feel kind of overwhelmed and clueless. I suppose that is a symptom of life as well.
I am blessed in that it has been a good year, even despite difficulties. I feel as though I am where I should be. Even on boring nights at home, where I sit on the sofa with my crocheting or a book, and Big Guy putzes around on his computer while Little Guy plays a game/watches a movie/creates chaos, I feel at peace and content. I like who and where I am.
So, what lessons have I learned this year…
I’ve learned that my tolerance for drama is at an all time low. I’ve dealt with enough upheaval in my own life that if others want to create or bathe in drama, I can’t handle it anymore. It stresses me out, makes me tense, and I want to run away. So, I’ve recognized that running from it may be the best option and I do.
I’ve learned that I need to push myself harder to get things done. I won NaNoWriMo. Now I need to push myself to finish the book. Get it written, get it revised, and get it out. I have to stop caring whether or not it’s crap. If Stephanie Meyer can get that misogynistic, cardboard drek published… So can I.
So, I resolve to complete my book and submit it for publication over the next year. It’s grown in scope and I discovered as I wrote that I needed to go back even further. I resolve to have a fantastic garden and to find new and wonderful opportunities to educate my child. I resolve to create a peaceful, happy home for my family and to continue to put my best efforts into my marriage and my parenting.
2011 was interesting and it ended on an extremely positive note. Here’s hoping 2012 carries on getting better.